By Amy Brucker
My cat Angus died this past Thursday. He was 18 years old and a little shaman who would curl up next to my clients and do his part to help them in their healing process.
He lived a long, good life, but it was time for him to say goodbye, and October was the perfect time for him to leave.
October is a Time for Releasing
Of releasing golden leaves that fall like confetti to the ground.
Of releasing grief so it can flow through us (instead of turning into depression).
Of releasing whatever is getting in the way of you living a good life.
Releasing Angus was a process for me. His small body started to decline a couple years ago, so I was able to prepare for the inevitable.
Every day I gave thanks for his grace in my life, for his presence. I reveled in his softness, knowing that someday it would be a memory. I took mental pictures, memorizing the subtle angles of his nose and chin, noticing how he sometimes looked like Homer Simpson, but other times like a wise Buddha, and laughing at the juxtaposition.
Releasing can be a big dramatic ritual with heart-wrenching cries, or a simple whisper of goodbye.
But however you express it, the most important thing is to be present. Presences gives your heart a chance to really feel your feelings, to give the mix of sadness and joy a place to co-exist so they can weave together a healing balm for your soul.
I said goodbye to Angus this morning, full of tears and a heavy heart. I created an altar with his photo, his favorite toy, some treats, and a candle. I’m grateful for how he shared his life with me.
What about you?
What do you need to be present with today?
What do you need to release? How does your heart feel in releasing it?
How can you make room for the joy and the sorrow so you can create your own soul medicine?
sweet dreams to you,