The Soul Medicine of Suicide and Death In Dreams

By Amy Brucker

Years ago, one of my clients was struggling with her life. She was unhappy because she couldn’t make friends or meet a loving partner to share her life with.

During one of our sessions she told me she dreamed she was going to commit suicide. In the dream, she was standing on the scaffolding of a building. She was visibly rattled, wondering what in the world it meant.

I could understand her concern, but my first response was to say,”Yay! Congratulations.”

Time for a Change

While there is always the possibility that death in dreams is a literal premonition, it’s usually about a transformation that is so complete the person going through it will be radically altered. The old self is dying, or will die, or needs to die, so the new self can be reborn.

Similarly, suicide–in waking life AND in dream life–is a call to transform, to consciously kill off the part of your life that is no longer needed so you can create your new self.

I’m not talking about killing the physical part of you. This is NOT about literal death of the physical body.

It’s about eliminating a habit or trait that is no longer needed so you can create new habits or traits that are better suited to your health and wellness.

A Sign You’re Ready (or Not) to Transform

If your soul is ready to shift it might send you a dream of death. The death of someone or something, or even yourself.

But the feelings you’re experiencing in the dream are the key to everything.

Does your dream self feel anxious about the death? Then it’s likely you’re feeling anxious about the transformation process.

Do you feel nervous? Fear? Joy? Indifferent? Blindsided? Any feeling in the dream is likely a reflection of your waking life feeling, a feeling you may or may not be aware exists. The dream is there to help you process your emotions.

So what do you do if you, a loved one, or a client is dreaming of death?

Reflect on the accompanying emotion and explore ways to address these so you can create a more fluid and fulfilling transformation.

When I work with clients, I listen to their dream and help them explore the meaning. That’s where most dreamworkers stop, but I go much deeper. I craft original soul medicine through a combination of soul constellation, flower essence remedy, and energy shifting to help my clients embody their dream and transform whatever it is they are experiencing. It’s far more effective than simple dreamwork and it creates profound shifts.

The client of mine who dreamed she committed suicide decided to move to a smaller town and build a new home. She’s much happier now, living with the love of her life.

Dreams of death and suicide are invitations to release that which no longer works so you can make room for something more aligned with your soul’s wishes. What a wonderful gift to help us delve into the healing power of soul medicine.

sweet dreams,

Amy

The Holy Power of Tiger Dreams

By Amy Brucker

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I was standing by a tree when flames erupted from the branches. I ran to save myself, but a tiger leapt out and chased me.

The ground held no refuge, so I did the only thing I could think of: I left my body and floated away.

The Holy Power of Tiger Dreams

Whenever I dream of Tiger, I wake up feeling blessed, even if the dream was scary. There’s something about her power, her regalness, that makes me feel like I was visited by something Holy.

In many cultures, west on the Medicine Wheel is about autumn, water, and letting go. The corresponding animal? Big Cats.

Big cats, like Tiger, are ferocious in nature. They sit in utter stillness, with patience and keen observation, before pouncing on their prey. When they do, their bloody maw snarls a victory cry. Or perhaps it’s the cry of pleasure.

Unapologetically powerful, Tiger is at once fierce and gracefully feline.

Tigers remind us of the power of radical transformation. The Death of Death. The point of no return.

When Tiger comes calling, you have an opportunity to watch and learn. She’s inviting you to patiently get ready to pounce. She blesses you with courage and perseverance. But you have to be willing to trust her presence in your life. If you don’t, you’ll get burned.

Dreaming of Tiger: A Struggle with Power

When I had this dream, it was the mid-nineties, a time when I was beginning to feel the stirrings of my connection to Spirit as well as my call to shamanism. With these callings came a sense of aloneness and lostness.

On one level, my dream indicated I was having a difficult time dealing with my personal power–my purpose, my passion, my anger–and that my tendency was to run from it and ultimately go out of body as a form of escape. My dream invited me to meet with tiger face to face and learn from her. It took me years to find the courage to make that happen.

Long before I had my dream, William Blake connected Tiger to Fire. He wrote:

Tyger Tyger, burning bright,
In the forests of the night;
What immortal hand or eye,
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?

Blake goes on to ask, “Did he who made the Lamb make thee?” Meaning, did the same hand create the gentle, timid lamb that created the fierce, powerful tiger?

This comparison reminds me of the times in my life when I’ve wondered about the merging of my own gentle and timid nature with my fierce power. Can both be “right”? Can both be a part of the Divine?

When Tiger appears in our dreams, she may be inviting us to notice how well we’ve integrated our power into our lives. Do we run from it? Does it make us go out of body in an attempt to deny it? Do we cuddle up with it and enjoy the warmth?

Next time you have a tiger dream, pay attention to how she shows up and notice if there is a correlation with how you are showing up with your power.

Do a waking journey with her in the imaginal realm and let her guide you deeper into union with your inner tiger.

Then see what happens.

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

Making It Through The Tough Times

By Amy Brucker

When things get tough, I tend to struggle a bit before I remember it doesn’t have to be so hard—I can surrender.

Surrendering is second nature to me now, but there was a time when the thought of surrendering was terrifying. I used to feel that I had to will my way through the tough times, or lie down in defeat and let depression settle in.

But those days are long gone, and with the Wisdom of Surrender comes a sort of soul relief, an exhalation. I can breathe so much better without the struggle.

Surrender your struggle to the Universe so it can release you from your burden.

Whenever you feel bound in place, or a strong push to move forward (that isn’t working), remind yourself to surrender.

Remember that the tough times are temporary.

You can call on the Divine to hold the burden for you so you can find clarity and renewed purpose. Then wait. Clarity will waft in like a feather on the wind. It might take a day or a week, but it will come. The trick is to have patience.

When I teach this practice to my clients and students, it confuses them at first.

Are you giving up? They ask, not out loud, but I can hear it in their silence.

No, I’m not giving up.

I surrender to the Universe. To what you might call God, Goddess, the Divine, Source, Spirit.

Surrender is like asking a trusted friend to hold your bag of groceries while you fumble for your keys. You know she’ll hold them for you until you’re able to hold them again. Or maybe she’ll just carry them into the house for you, set them down, and put them away. This is the beauty of surrender. Sometimes you get your baggage back, sometimes it disappears completely, but however the saga unfolds, your needs are met.

In order to surrender, to truly surrender, it helps to trust that on some level, all is well no matter what.

That doesn’t mean things will always go your way. Or that people won’t get sick and die.

In fact, things on the earthly plane may look beyond repair.

But on some level, on the way to your purest Essence or God or Goddess or the Universe, all is well. When you connect to this place, it’s easier to let go of struggle and surrender so ultimately you can move forward.

When you surrender, you become a channel for Spirit to move through you. It’s from this centered place that you can create soulutions to challenging problems.

Surrendering is a simple and subtle, yet freeing sensation.

You know that feeling of total relaxation? Like when you get into bed after a good day, sink into the mattress and feel like you’re floating on a cloud as your conscious mind slowly slips into oblivion?

That’s what it feels like to surrender.

There is a knowing that all will be well if you can trust your true Essence.

This is a place of non-duality. There is no good or bad, but something else entirely. It’s a sort of Divine Neutrality, except it has a hint of inspiration and a dash of acceptance.

It’s a peaceful place.

Will you join me there?

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

The Joy Of Living From Essence

Written By Amy Brucker

What do you see?

At first glance you might see beautiful, colorful flowers. But upon closer inspection you see little imperfections.

The petals are rough around the edges, browning. The tomato is unripened, having fallen from the vine too soon. The geranium leaves are turning white, a sign of disease.

This is my basket of misfits, the discarded blooms that withered due to hardship or age.

Still, they’re beautiful.

Seeing with New Eyes

At first glance, the lives around you may seem beautiful, colorful. Perhaps you’ve felt envious of the visible success, the ease with which the women in your life grow their ideas and bloom into something magnificent. Things may look lovely, as though they haven’t a care in the world.

But upon closer inspection, you might notice something unexpected. The “soul-mate” coach is on the verge of divorce. The wealthy “business coach” is teetering on the edge of bankruptcy. The happy mother is becoming an alcoholic because the stress is overwhelming.

People’s lives aren’t always as they seem. When you look more closely, you see how the beautiful dimensions of life are woven with adversity–like the warp and weft of a basket, you can’t have one without the other.

It would be easy to judge, once the deeper truth is revealed, but what if we saw it a different way?

A Person’s True Personality

I’ve heard it said that, “A person’s true nature is revealed in tough times”, as though someone’s stress induced rage is who they really are, underneath all of the day-to-day joy, but I disagree.

We are multi-faceted beings with good days and challenging days. We are a mixture of shadow and light. We snarl and sneer, laugh and dance. We are not one of these things, but all of them, and none of them.

You can’t summarize a flower’s essence based solely on what happens during a drought, when the color fades from the petals and the vine begins to wither.

The flower’s true essence can only be expressed by witnessing its entire existence: its potential, its day-to-day experience, its rooting and its blooming, its dying and its re-seeding.

The Joy of Living from Essence

When you live from your Essence you weave together the shadow and the light, creating a strong container to hold your purpose, your offering to the world.

Denying any aspect of your Essence creates a weak vessel, one that cannot hold the full power of your being.

To live from Essence, you must clear any ancestral wounds that limit your self perception, or tether you in place. Inherited beliefs, behaviors, and habits that do not serve you need to go.

When you break free from the binds that hold you back, you untether yourself and it sets you free.

You make room for the rich humus of your shadow and the brilliance of your light.

You become a stronger container that can hold the full power of your purpose.

You become a colorful bouquet of flowers that looks beautiful despite any roughness around the edges. Without apology, but wild grace.

May it be so.

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

First Ever Women’s Dream Temple Retreat ~ You’re invited

By Amy Brucker

I’m excited to announce the first Dream Temple Retreat—for Women:

Dreaming the Sacred into Life

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During this inspiring weekend, we’ll slip into the dreamtime with soulful women who are devoted to living from their Essence.

We’ll sit in sisterhood and

…create sacred space with altars and art.

…embody our dreams with dream sharing, dream journeying, dream theater, dream art, soul (energy) tracking, ancestral healing, plant medicine—whatever Spirit calls us to do and be.

… dance in the moonlight.

… drum by the fire.

… tell stories.

… share insights.

… give offerings.

And through it all, we’ll have fun!

This work is magical. This work is deep. This work is powerful.

Will you join me? I hope so!

Click here to learn more

sweet dreaming,

Amy

P.S. Early bird registration is due this Friday. I did this so I could get a sense of how many people are interested. If you are, let me know! I would love to meet you in person. Here’s the link again.

Aliens are just “Soul-Less” Ancient Human Beings

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By Phoenix of Elder Mountain – Aliens are just “Soul-Less” ancient Human Beings with only a Mental (astral) Body left. This has given them extremely powerful Telepathy (mind control) and live on the dream planes of Earth right near us every single day. Combine this with the Military agenda of the Demon Humans (dark humans living with demonic souls), and you have the real Matrix 

The movie “Children of the Corn” came out in 1984, my son was born in ’83 and my daughter in ’85, and by the time my daughter was two years old (the year of the Harmonic Convergence, the first of four (until 2026); she told me there were aliens in our basement, I had never spoken those words to my kids when they were little. I said ok, let’s go see if we can find them and I carried her down the stairs with…

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~ Releasing Resistance ~

By Amy Brucker

The other night, at 2:00 am (wide awake due to a late night coffee Popsicle — duh — and the full moon), I suddenly realized why my soul felt tethered in place.

It was the kind of epiphany that deserves an audible “ping” and the face-palm exclamation of, “Whoa! Why didn’t I know this before?!”

You see, my inner voice kept saying, “free me.”

And I wanted to feel free. Truly, unequivocally free.

I wanted to hop in the car and drive away without an agenda.

I wanted to wake up to the wild and untamed wilderness. To the sound of sunflowers dancing in the breeze..

Yet I felt tethered in place. I couldn’t move.

Dealing with a Tethered Soul

Have you ever felt this way? Tethered down despite feeling completely aligned with your purpose? As though you could not move forward no matter how hard you tried?

Well, this tethered feeling came with a heavy, thick-as-concrete sensation, which was not altogether unfamiliar. You might call it a block, but it was so much more than that.

I felt it in my energy body, in my physical body, and I didn’t like it. Nor could I shake it. Every time I tried to “let it go” I’d feel good for five seconds then the weight would return. With the weight came a feeling of heaviness, depression almost, and an unexpected sense of loss.

Then out of no where, I had the epiphany. *ping*

I realized the tethered sensation was the simple result of resistance. I was resisting many things.

I was mired down in “shoulds.” I “should” make a lot more money. I “should” do this marketing plan. I “should” have gotten that person to understand me. I “should not” have to explain myself. Other people “should” accept me for who I am.

Once I realized I was in resistance, that the better choice was to drop the “shoulds” and slip into trust, I was able to let go. Something released in me. I felt an expulsion, as though I’d exhaled a long held breath. My body became lighter and the sensation of freedom filled the vacancy in my being.

Resistance is a Tricky Beast

Until I had this experience, I thought resistance always looked a certain way, sort of cowardly, like a person lacking the ability to jump when the next step is uncertain, but this experience made me realize resistance is a shapeshifter. It can look like fear, anger, depression, or a big fat should.

Resistance shows up in many ways. It’s sneaky and powerful and it can wreak havoc on your life when it gains control and you don’t realize it’s really just resistance.

The key to freeing your soul is to understand how the many faces of resistance show up in your life, and then to release whatever it is you are resisting.

Home Grown Soul Medicine to Release Resistance

Flower essences are perfect for supporting you if you’re working through resistance. As energy medicine, they work on the emotional and energy bodies to help you process difficult emotions.

The other day I made a Zinnia flower essence and it’s especially good for helping people lighten up, which is a needed quality for people in resistance. Here’s the blend I made:

Remedy to Release Resistance

Zinnia to enhance lightness and childlike enthusiasm.

Willow to activate forgiveness, acceptance, and be in the flow of life.

Poison Oak to help you feel safe while being emotionally open and vulnerable.

Trusting the Divine

It’s much easier to release resistance when you trust in a higher power. Whether that’s your higher self, Source, or a support system, releasing resistance is about surrendering to the present moment and making a clear decision about how to move forward in a way that feeds your soul. Even if the clarity is just to release resistance.

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

Animal Spirit and Medicine: Animal Spirits

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Animal Spirits work with us in many capacities and on a variety of levels. As Totems, they reflect aspects of our personalities teaching us to know ourselves better and understand our interrelationships. Power Animals are much the same; they are the dominant Totem and merge in a sacred spiritual manner with our inner spirit. Guides are not always animals but they can be; these creatures guide us through spiritual realms and to our teachers showing the way to enlightenment. Some Animal Spirits act as messengers coming once or twice in a lifetime while others are frequent visitors. All these capacities reflect their abilities to impart a wide variety of messages on many different levels. All Animal Spirits are our teachers in one way or another. They can act as protectors giving us warnings, or defending us in other ways. While they teach us about ourselves and our lives, their highest…

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Why Women Feel More Depleted Than Ever ~ Amy Brucker

By Amy Brucker

Did I mention I’m studying herbal medicine? I LOVE it!!!

Every night, after I’ve finished my dinner, I cannot wait to learn more about herbs. I even made my own Dandelion Grapefruit Bitter to aid in digestion. (And had fun creating the labels!)

This month I’m learning about the importance of a solid foundation. You see, the trick to growing successful herbs is the soil. Without a rich, fertile foundation, herbs can’t grow, and if they can’t grow, they can’t do any of their magic.

Why Women Need to Pay Close Attention to This Process

Your foundation in life is everything.

When you have the right foundation for your life you feel engaged with your purpose, joyfully inspired, and a certain lightness of being. Things flow more freely and you grow your ideas with relative ease.

When nutrients are missing, though, things don’t work out so well. You might feel depleted, crabby, irritable, or argumentative, or perhaps you go within and feel even more isolated.

And growing your purpose?

With a deficit the process is difficult, full of obstacles, and frustrating. You push important, soul-centered ideas aside and wait for that illusive “perfect time” to dive in, but of course, it never comes.

So what’s going on with your foundation?

I ask because I’ve noticed a lot of women walking around feeling totally depleted on many levels. They look happy and well-adjusted, like they’re enjoying everything about life, but secretly they’re feeling devoid of the important nutrients they need to feel whole in mind, body, and soul.

Like being nurtured, which includes being cared for, appreciated, heard, seen, and recognized.

The reason for this depletion is partly because we live in a crazy, fast-paced world that has created a me-centered, isolated existence, a direct result of people feeling too depleted to care for anyone but themselves.

In fact, I’ve been reading lately that “spiritual women” are becoming too me-centered and that they need to focus on other people by doing things like volunteering and helping those less fortunate

But volunteering to help other people, no matter how altruistic, is not the solution. It’s just more depletion.

Because the ironic twist is that women are either biologically or socially conditioned to be nurturers who give endlessly, and so, despite their own exhaustion, they give and give and give. The problem is they don’t get enough back in return.

This may seem like circular logic, but I see it happening every day.

What women get in return for their efforts is a paycheck, food on their table, and maybe a hug from their family or friends.

But those things can only sustain a woman for so long. Women need to be nurtured in mind, body, and soul. They need to feel a heartfelt connection to community, to feel loved, to feel seen, to feel heard. And that doesn’t always happen in our me-centered, isolated culture.

Let Life and Spirit Move through You More Often

I once read a story about women from an African tribe who gathered once a week to make pottery. They came together in the morning and sang all day. They sang tribal songs, ancestral songs. They enjoyed one another’s company, laughed, and had fun. An hour before their work day was over, they made the pottery. Their entire day was filled with joyful celebration, of building connection, of being seen, and feeling supported.

They were nurtured on many levels.

Creating a Sacred Foundation

Imagine what your life would be like if you sang and danced more often with women who were close to you, either literally or metaphorically, and spent fewer hours doing your work. You might feel like nothing would get done, but I suspect something else would happen.

I bet you’d feel so refreshed and rejuvenated that you’d get done exactly what you needed to get done in order to do a good job doing what you do.

Your idea of what needs to get done might shift.

You might realize you don’t need to be trolling Facebook for hours in search of something interesting.

You might find you don’t need to keep the house quite as clean as you thought you did.

And you might find that your foundation is so fertile and rich that your soulful desires grow smoothly and with joy.

It may sound impossible.

It may sound idealistic.

But let me tell you a little secret …

This is how I’ve been living my life for the past year and guess what? It works.

I haven’t perfected the art yet, but I feel in love with life every day.

My purpose is blossoming in ways I never would have imagined, with less work and more fun.

And although there are still some areas that seem slow in coming to fruition, I have a deeper understanding of why (because I need to continually tend to my foundation so it will support my new endeavors) and I have more patience than I used to.

Your Sacred Foundation

Take a moment to reflect on your foundation.

What’s working well?

What’s missing?

What can you do to create a sacred foundation that supports you and nourishes you so you feel deeply inspired and full of life?

sweet dreams,

Amy

Amy Brucker ~ Dream Your Desires Into Being

Oops … Forgot The Baby ~ Amy Brucker

baby-picture-whaemI’ve noticed a women-centric trend in dreamland: babies.

Forgetting you have a baby.

Forgetting to feed the baby.

Unintentionally harming the baby.

Being handed a baby.

Losing the baby.

Leaving the baby behind.

It’s a trend that speaks volumes to the number one problem I’ve noticed most women share: self-care.

The lack of self-care with women is so bad we’d call it a pandemic if it were a physical illness instead of a mental one.

But how exactly is “self-care” part of a “baby dream”, and how might these dreams help you navigate this tricky terrain if you’re one of the many women having this experience?

Good questions!

What is Your Dream Baby?

If you shared a baby dream with me, I’d immediately consider how the baby might be an aspect of your purpose, or something you want to do or be or experience in life.

You might say the dream out loud, substituting “baby” with “purpose” or “project” or “vision”, and see if the concept fits. For instance, imagine this is the original dream:

I dreamed I’m walking down my hallway when I hear a baby crying. I run into the room and realize I totally forgot I have a baby and it’s starving, near death. I feel horrible, but am grateful the baby didn’t die and I can now take care of it. It’s not too late.

It’s a simple dream packed with meaning, and you can re-read it like this to explore the message:

I dreamed I’m walking down my hallway when I hear my purpose crying. I run into the room and realize I totally forgot I have a purpose and it’s starving, near death. I feel horrible, but am grateful the purpose didn’t die and I can now take care of it. It’s not too late.

The baby might also represent any of the following aspects of life that feel new and vulnerable, or were left in their beginning stage:

  • project
  • calling
  • desire/vision
  • self-care
  • health
  • money
  • anything new in life
  • anything left in a new/beginning stage (e.g. an unwritten book)
  • anything that you feel responsible for
  • a new thought/idea/way of being
  • a desire for a real-life baby
  • a vulnerable part of you

In other words, the dream baby could be many things, and determining the meaning may require exploration to see what fits best. (The baby can also represent many things at once.)

Whatever the dream baby represents, it’s worth investigating your relationship to it and what you need to do to create health and wellness in that area.

Finding Next Steps in the Dream

Your dreams give you clues about the current emotional, physical, and mental state that may be unconscious to your waking mind, but may be impacting your wellbeing. In other words, you may not realize you have a problem, yet it’s a problem you need to solve in order to move toward health and wholeness.

Women are super adaptable beings who are biologically programmed to succeed, which means we can fool ourselves into thinking we’re okay, even when we know something’s amiss. This means we can go through life thinking we’re fine when instead we’re silently suffering and oblivious.

But our dreams don’t lie to us. They reveal the truth about our thoughts, feelings, fears, and gifts. Knowing how to read dreams can help you bring what’s not working into alignment in a way that feels joyful.

So what can you look for in a dream to help you find those best, next steps? Look for the “before” and “after.” Most dreams have two parts, the “before” that illuminates the problem, and the “after” that offers a solution.

Using our dream example from above, the “before” is as follows:

I’m walking down my hallway when I hear a baby (e.g. purpose) crying.

The “before” explains the waking life situation that is problematic. A young, vulnerable part of my life is trying to get my attention and it’s essential that I pay attention.

The dream then reveals the simple next steps:

I run into the room and realize I forgot I have a baby (e.g. purpose) and it’s starving, near death. I feel horrible, but am relieved the baby (e.g. purpose) didn’t die and I can now take care of it. It’s not too late.

The before is simply saying, “Hey, you have a purpose that’s being ignored. The more you ignore it the louder (more problematic) it’s going to get.

The after is saying, “Go back to your initial idea or the thing that’s in an infancy stage and feed it. Notice you feel horrible. This is a sign the baby (e.g. purpose) is important to you and that you don’t really want to neglect it. Be grateful the baby (e.g. purpose) is still alive and that you are now able to feed it and bring it to life.”

Taking it a step further, “feed it” might be “write in your book” or “tend to your relationship.”

It’s equally important that you transition out of “feeling horrible” into “grateful” so you don’t stay mired in disempowerment and regret, which is something many women do once they realize they’ve wasted a lot of time by putting the purpose, project or thing on hold.

The dream is saying, “It’s not too late” There is hope.

Create Your Own Dream Medicine Remedy

If you’re having dreams about forgetting to feed or care for a baby, it might be useful to take flower essences geared toward nurturing your creativity and purpose. Here’s what I recommend:

Pomegranate helps balance the creative female energies, both inner and outer.

Quince helps establish balance with the soul’s need to express both power and love; to integrate nurturing feelings within a role which also requires authority and responsibility.

I also recommend working with someone who can help you integrate your purpose, or whatever the baby represents, into your life.

Baby dreams encourage the dreamer to take action, to remember what you’re here for, and to trust the process.

That’s good advice to follow.

Sweet dreams,

Amy

Amy Brucker ~ Dream Your Desires Into Being