The Joy Of Living From Essence

Written By Amy Brucker

What do you see?

At first glance you might see beautiful, colorful flowers. But upon closer inspection you see little imperfections.

The petals are rough around the edges, browning. The tomato is unripened, having fallen from the vine too soon. The geranium leaves are turning white, a sign of disease.

This is my basket of misfits, the discarded blooms that withered due to hardship or age.

Still, they’re beautiful.

Seeing with New Eyes

At first glance, the lives around you may seem beautiful, colorful. Perhaps you’ve felt envious of the visible success, the ease with which the women in your life grow their ideas and bloom into something magnificent. Things may look lovely, as though they haven’t a care in the world.

But upon closer inspection, you might notice something unexpected. The “soul-mate” coach is on the verge of divorce. The wealthy “business coach” is teetering on the edge of bankruptcy. The happy mother is becoming an alcoholic because the stress is overwhelming.

People’s lives aren’t always as they seem. When you look more closely, you see how the beautiful dimensions of life are woven with adversity–like the warp and weft of a basket, you can’t have one without the other.

It would be easy to judge, once the deeper truth is revealed, but what if we saw it a different way?

A Person’s True Personality

I’ve heard it said that, “A person’s true nature is revealed in tough times”, as though someone’s stress induced rage is who they really are, underneath all of the day-to-day joy, but I disagree.

We are multi-faceted beings with good days and challenging days. We are a mixture of shadow and light. We snarl and sneer, laugh and dance. We are not one of these things, but all of them, and none of them.

You can’t summarize a flower’s essence based solely on what happens during a drought, when the color fades from the petals and the vine begins to wither.

The flower’s true essence can only be expressed by witnessing its entire existence: its potential, its day-to-day experience, its rooting and its blooming, its dying and its re-seeding.

The Joy of Living from Essence

When you live from your Essence you weave together the shadow and the light, creating a strong container to hold your purpose, your offering to the world.

Denying any aspect of your Essence creates a weak vessel, one that cannot hold the full power of your being.

To live from Essence, you must clear any ancestral wounds that limit your self perception, or tether you in place. Inherited beliefs, behaviors, and habits that do not serve you need to go.

When you break free from the binds that hold you back, you untether yourself and it sets you free.

You make room for the rich humus of your shadow and the brilliance of your light.

You become a stronger container that can hold the full power of your purpose.

You become a colorful bouquet of flowers that looks beautiful despite any roughness around the edges. Without apology, but wild grace.

May it be so.

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

First Ever Women’s Dream Temple Retreat ~ You’re invited

By Amy Brucker

I’m excited to announce the first Dream Temple Retreat—for Women:

Dreaming the Sacred into Life

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During this inspiring weekend, we’ll slip into the dreamtime with soulful women who are devoted to living from their Essence.

We’ll sit in sisterhood and

…create sacred space with altars and art.

…embody our dreams with dream sharing, dream journeying, dream theater, dream art, soul (energy) tracking, ancestral healing, plant medicine—whatever Spirit calls us to do and be.

… dance in the moonlight.

… drum by the fire.

… tell stories.

… share insights.

… give offerings.

And through it all, we’ll have fun!

This work is magical. This work is deep. This work is powerful.

Will you join me? I hope so!

Click here to learn more

sweet dreaming,

Amy

P.S. Early bird registration is due this Friday. I did this so I could get a sense of how many people are interested. If you are, let me know! I would love to meet you in person. Here’s the link again.

Aliens are just “Soul-Less” Ancient Human Beings

Elder Mountain Dreaming

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By Phoenix of Elder Mountain – Aliens are just “Soul-Less” ancient Human Beings with only a Mental (astral) Body left. This has given them extremely powerful Telepathy (mind control) and live on the dream planes of Earth right near us every single day. Combine this with the Military agenda of the Demon Humans (dark humans living with demonic souls), and you have the real Matrix 

The movie “Children of the Corn” came out in 1984, my son was born in ’83 and my daughter in ’85, and by the time my daughter was two years old (the year of the Harmonic Convergence, the first of four (until 2026); she told me there were aliens in our basement, I had never spoken those words to my kids when they were little. I said ok, let’s go see if we can find them and I carried her down the stairs with…

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~ Releasing Resistance ~

By Amy Brucker

The other night, at 2:00 am (wide awake due to a late night coffee Popsicle — duh — and the full moon), I suddenly realized why my soul felt tethered in place.

It was the kind of epiphany that deserves an audible “ping” and the face-palm exclamation of, “Whoa! Why didn’t I know this before?!”

You see, my inner voice kept saying, “free me.”

And I wanted to feel free. Truly, unequivocally free.

I wanted to hop in the car and drive away without an agenda.

I wanted to wake up to the wild and untamed wilderness. To the sound of sunflowers dancing in the breeze..

Yet I felt tethered in place. I couldn’t move.

Dealing with a Tethered Soul

Have you ever felt this way? Tethered down despite feeling completely aligned with your purpose? As though you could not move forward no matter how hard you tried?

Well, this tethered feeling came with a heavy, thick-as-concrete sensation, which was not altogether unfamiliar. You might call it a block, but it was so much more than that.

I felt it in my energy body, in my physical body, and I didn’t like it. Nor could I shake it. Every time I tried to “let it go” I’d feel good for five seconds then the weight would return. With the weight came a feeling of heaviness, depression almost, and an unexpected sense of loss.

Then out of no where, I had the epiphany. *ping*

I realized the tethered sensation was the simple result of resistance. I was resisting many things.

I was mired down in “shoulds.” I “should” make a lot more money. I “should” do this marketing plan. I “should” have gotten that person to understand me. I “should not” have to explain myself. Other people “should” accept me for who I am.

Once I realized I was in resistance, that the better choice was to drop the “shoulds” and slip into trust, I was able to let go. Something released in me. I felt an expulsion, as though I’d exhaled a long held breath. My body became lighter and the sensation of freedom filled the vacancy in my being.

Resistance is a Tricky Beast

Until I had this experience, I thought resistance always looked a certain way, sort of cowardly, like a person lacking the ability to jump when the next step is uncertain, but this experience made me realize resistance is a shapeshifter. It can look like fear, anger, depression, or a big fat should.

Resistance shows up in many ways. It’s sneaky and powerful and it can wreak havoc on your life when it gains control and you don’t realize it’s really just resistance.

The key to freeing your soul is to understand how the many faces of resistance show up in your life, and then to release whatever it is you are resisting.

Home Grown Soul Medicine to Release Resistance

Flower essences are perfect for supporting you if you’re working through resistance. As energy medicine, they work on the emotional and energy bodies to help you process difficult emotions.

The other day I made a Zinnia flower essence and it’s especially good for helping people lighten up, which is a needed quality for people in resistance. Here’s the blend I made:

Remedy to Release Resistance

Zinnia to enhance lightness and childlike enthusiasm.

Willow to activate forgiveness, acceptance, and be in the flow of life.

Poison Oak to help you feel safe while being emotionally open and vulnerable.

Trusting the Divine

It’s much easier to release resistance when you trust in a higher power. Whether that’s your higher self, Source, or a support system, releasing resistance is about surrendering to the present moment and making a clear decision about how to move forward in a way that feeds your soul. Even if the clarity is just to release resistance.

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

~ When Freedom Comes With A Price ~

By Amy Brucker

I just got back from a two week adventure in Colorado during which 135 of my closest relatives gathered from every corner of the continent to attend a family reunion.

After our Friday night dinner, I gave a presentation about our genealogy and how ourancestors were instrumental in the shaping of American Independence, and how that freedom came with a price.

Filled with hope and a vision, my ancestors came to the New World looking for freedom, but what they found was a hard road paved with loss and devastation. As Independence Day approaches, their stories are a relevant reminder of the cost of freedom.

The Cost of Freedom

During my presentation, I shared that our ancestors came over on the Mayflower in 1620, and how Susana White, our many-times-great-grandmother, was one of only four women who lived through the first winter, thanks to the Wampanoag who helped them survive.

I talked about how our ancestors were the subject of the Eames Family Massacre in Framingham, MA in 1676 during the King Philip’s War. How my many-times-great-grandmother, Mary Padelford Eames, and five of her children were massacred by Nipmuc Indians, and how we are the direct descendants of the only child who survived and had children.

I shared how our many-times-great-grandfather, Jacob Barney, lived next to the physician who examined the accused during the witch trials of 1692, and how the Barney family donated two acres of land to the Village of Salem to be used as a school, and then mysteriously moved far away, just as as the trials were beginning in April.

I then shared how our ancestors fought in the Revolutionary War, the War of 1812, and the Civil War, and how my great-great-grandfather was part of the Eighth Cavalry who was instrumental in capturing and slaying Sitting Bull, a Holy Man whose greatest desire was to ensure the health and wellbeing of his clan.

My family was instrumental in shaping the “Independence of America”, but it’s a freedom that comes with a price.

There are many sides to every story and the shaping of America is no different.

Wampanoag and Nipmuc Indians wanted to live in harmony with the land, keep their traditions alive, and honor their agreements with the colonists.

Pilgrims wanted a safe place to practice their religion, raise families in accordance with their beliefs, and cultivate a place of belonging that was independent of political influence.

When these two worlds collided it resulted in tenuous friendships followed by bloody battles and devastating losses on both sides.

As Americans everywhere celebrate Independence Day this Fourth of July, remember that our freedom comes with a price. Every story has many sides, and the opposition isn’t really the enemy, but a person or people who are trying to assure their safety, belonging, and worth as a human, and sometimes their quest night seem at odds with your own.

Knowing Where You Come From Shapes Your Perception

We can’t change our past, but we can change how we perceive people whose values and outlook on life are different than ours. We all want safety, belonging, and to feel worthy. These are basic human needs.

True freedom comes from understanding that the power of our purpose, the reasons why we are here, do not have to impede on the freedom of others, and that there is always a way for all people to thrive.

The challenge is that the answer may not be obvious. We may have to examine our past in order to understand why we see the world the way we do, and then remember that there is always more than one perspective, each of which can be true.

As we move forward with our independence, with freedoms others may seek to deny, we need to look for soulutions we haven’t seen before. What answers are standing right before us? What haven’t we seen?

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

The Sphinx Moth, Butterfly and Moth Totems

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Elder Mountain Dreaming

blue butterflyBy Phoenix of Elder Mountain –  A Great Ash Sphinx Moth visited Elder Mountain two years ago, and then I had a dream about a year ago in much detail, of the Brotherhood of the Sphinx (which doesn’t exist in the occult, magic or esoteric, nor middle ages documents when most writing was collected and done). I received some information about this ancient cult from the dreaming, so I decided to write about the symbolism (totem) of the Sphinx Moth, Butterfly and Moth today.

We have two symbols here to work with, the Sphinx and the Moth. Like its butterfly cousin, the moth shows the symbolism of transformation at various levels. How this equates to our life, is we are in a “longer” cycle of change (not a short one, month or year, but several years). I work with cycles and symbolism together and found over the decades that we…

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Crystal of the Week: Blue Kyanite – Holistic Experiment

Source: Crystal of the Week: Blue Kyanite – Holistic Experiment

Blue Kyanite is the most well-known color of Kyanite and it’s often used for its ability to align and open all of the chakras. It’s an excellent choice for healers because it places a shield around the healer, conducts healing energy and grounds it.

It’s a high vibration stone with strong crystal energy that will open the throat chakra and promote better communication and self-expression as well as assist the user to speak their personal truth.

Since this stone is so powerful that it does not need to be cleansed. Someone with a lower vibration may feel horrible side-effects from Kyanite because of its ability to raise the vibrations of the wearer to reach a higher state of consciousness.

Physical, Emotional and Spiritual Purposes

On a physical level, Blue Kyanite can be used for people who suffer from speech impediments as well as issues with their bone marrow. It promotes mobility in the body and helps with any sort of tissue healing.

This stone can also be used for people who have suffered from strokes, issues with the nervous system, the brain, the thyroid, and any issue that has to do with the throat. It’s also a natural pain reliever and lowers blood pressure and aids in back problems.

Blue Kyanite is great for patients who have had accidents or surgery on any part of the body. It’s also great for people who are low in energy and can assist trauma and replenish one’s energy.

On an emotional level, this stone can be used to promote a healthy communication so it’s great for people who are afraid of public speaking. It also aids tension and promotes tranquility as well as clears and calms the user in preparation for meditation.

The best way to use this stone is during meditation because it allows one to make contact with spiritual beings and can help develop one’s intuition. Blue Kyanite also facilitates meditation and help release fear from both oneself and those the user works with.

On a spiritual level, Blue Kyanite helps clear the meridians and pathways and will restore the flow of energy to the chakras. It also helps with astral traveling, out-of-body experiences, promotes one’s psychic abilities, and makes visualizations stronger.

You can also put Blue Kyanite under the pillow to promote lucid dreams.

Disclaimer: Crystal of the Week are a spiritual support to healing and are not prescription or healthcare information.

Bobinsana ~ Good Witches Homestead

Source: Bobinsana~ From Help Healing Grief, Heartbreak and Pain to Shamanic Lucid Dreaming

A relative of the mimosa tree, Bobinsana (Calliandra Angustifolia) is a water loving plant that belongs to the Pea family (Leguminosae). It grows around 4-6 meters high and is usually found alongside, rivers, streams, and bodies of water in the Amazon basin. It is found in regions of Ecuador, Colombia, Peru, Brazil and Bolivia. It produces an abundance of gorgeous pink to reddish powder puff-like flowers.

Traditionally bobinsana is taken by tincture in an alcohol made from cane sugar called aguardiente or a strong tea (decoction). All parts of the plant are used for healing. The roots, bark, leaves and flowers.

Bobinsana is a well-known “plant teacher” sometimes used in conjunction with a psychedelic amazonian brew called “Ayahuasca”. While bobinsana alone is not hallucinogenic, it is considered a plant teacher or master plant and is sometimes added to ayahuasca recipes to help the shaman connect to and learn from the plants. The plant is typically taken on a special diet or during these shamanic ceremonies for opening and healing the heart, to enhance empathy, to deepen one’s connection to nature and provide grounding. According to many Ayahuasca curenderos “doctorcita bobinsana” as they say, is a very gentle healing plant spirit increasing clarity, focus, compassion and for addressing heartbreak, grief, and loss.

“According to many Ayahuasca curenderos “doctorcita bobinsana” as they say, is a very gentle healing plant spirit increasing clarity, focus, compassion and for addressing heartbreak, grief, and loss.

Many times in our lives we have experienced forms of heartbreak, sadness, sudden loss, emotional struggles. It’s human nature to experience these feelings. And it’s good to know that you can have support during those troubling times. This plant is just one of many that can hold our hand along the way, while we process our feelings and life experiences. The plant is also becoming very well known for producing profound lucid dreaming experiences, colorful shamanic visionary type dreams in which new insights about one’s life are found and healing can occur.

“profound lucid dreaming experiences, colorful shamanic visionary type dreams in which new insights about one’s life are found and healing can occur.”

Among other uses, the Shipibo Conibo people of the Ucayali area in Peru and other Amazonian indigenous tribes use the sacred plant to treat arthritis, bone pain, rheumatism, uterine cancer, edema, nasal congestion, fevers, colds, inflammation, and to purify the blood. They also bathe in the freshly grated bark to improve dexterity, increase resistance to illnesses and protect against colds and chills.

Now that we see how useful this plant can be. It’s a good thing to share the information and see if it’s the right herb for you, your family or your friends. Whether you or someone you know is experiencing grief, loss, pain or intense sadness, this sacred plant can be a gentle ally during the healing process. AND If you’re interested in having enhanced lucid dreams then this special plant is right up your ally! People can also use this for deepening their shamanic, meditation, dreaming or yogic practices. Which makes this herb one of a kind!

“People can also use this for deepening their shamanic, meditation, dreaming or yogic practices.”

As always I love to share the joy of being a herbalist and since this plant is very useful and quite rare it’s hard to find a good place to get it. So I’ve made a very potent 1:2 liquid extract tincture of ethically wild-harvested bark and leaves made with organic alcohol, organic honey, and Colorado mountain spring water. You can find it here>>> Bobinsana Tincture

Disclaimer~ Bobinsana is traditionally used as a contraceptive in Peru. While there is no research to confirm this possible action, those seeking to get pregnant should avoid this plant. Should not be used during pregnancy or lactation. If you take pharmaceutical drugs or have a medical condition please consult your doctor before using. Make sure to always do your research and talk with your medical advisor before adding any herbs to your diet. This post’s information is not approved by the FDA to treat, diagnose, prevent or cure any diseases. The information presented in this post is provided for informational purposes only.

Dreaming 102 – Elder Mountain Dreaming

Middle World: As the illustration below shows, when you are experiencing in your dreams or the in-between (states of waking and dreaming) of the “pulling or sucking upward” experiences. This means that your astral body (soul) is being sucked up by a outside source (ifo ships). Fight and resist this as much as possible and wake yourself up to pull yourself out. Sucking up which is an outside influence.

Under World: As the illustration below shows, when you are experiencing in your dream state or in-between (waking and dreaming)  the falling downwards is a natural state and not to be frightened. This is when one must begin to deal with the karmic astral body in the underworld. One should “never” work with their karmic astral body shadow and the various consequences of such interaction, it is mandatory to keep healing boundaries “outside of the underworld.” If the “falling downward” begins to happen its time to work with grounded disciplines and sobriety. This is the time the realm opens to heal personal issues at greater levels than normal and begin to work with a shaman of experience.

As a dreamer (shaman) I counsel and guide with experienced wisdom, for those wanting to ground and stabilize this activity of one’s soul body. I work with the different levels,  practices and grounding disciplines of  the processes all levels of the soul, paranormal experiences, out of bodies, multiple levels of dreams, dreaming and more advanced dreaming.
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Art: Pierre Julien Fieux

Source: Dreaming 102 – Elder Mountain Dreaming

Oops … Forgot The Baby ~ Amy Brucker

baby-picture-whaemI’ve noticed a women-centric trend in dreamland: babies.

Forgetting you have a baby.

Forgetting to feed the baby.

Unintentionally harming the baby.

Being handed a baby.

Losing the baby.

Leaving the baby behind.

It’s a trend that speaks volumes to the number one problem I’ve noticed most women share: self-care.

The lack of self-care with women is so bad we’d call it a pandemic if it were a physical illness instead of a mental one.

But how exactly is “self-care” part of a “baby dream”, and how might these dreams help you navigate this tricky terrain if you’re one of the many women having this experience?

Good questions!

What is Your Dream Baby?

If you shared a baby dream with me, I’d immediately consider how the baby might be an aspect of your purpose, or something you want to do or be or experience in life.

You might say the dream out loud, substituting “baby” with “purpose” or “project” or “vision”, and see if the concept fits. For instance, imagine this is the original dream:

I dreamed I’m walking down my hallway when I hear a baby crying. I run into the room and realize I totally forgot I have a baby and it’s starving, near death. I feel horrible, but am grateful the baby didn’t die and I can now take care of it. It’s not too late.

It’s a simple dream packed with meaning, and you can re-read it like this to explore the message:

I dreamed I’m walking down my hallway when I hear my purpose crying. I run into the room and realize I totally forgot I have a purpose and it’s starving, near death. I feel horrible, but am grateful the purpose didn’t die and I can now take care of it. It’s not too late.

The baby might also represent any of the following aspects of life that feel new and vulnerable, or were left in their beginning stage:

  • project
  • calling
  • desire/vision
  • self-care
  • health
  • money
  • anything new in life
  • anything left in a new/beginning stage (e.g. an unwritten book)
  • anything that you feel responsible for
  • a new thought/idea/way of being
  • a desire for a real-life baby
  • a vulnerable part of you

In other words, the dream baby could be many things, and determining the meaning may require exploration to see what fits best. (The baby can also represent many things at once.)

Whatever the dream baby represents, it’s worth investigating your relationship to it and what you need to do to create health and wellness in that area.

Finding Next Steps in the Dream

Your dreams give you clues about the current emotional, physical, and mental state that may be unconscious to your waking mind, but may be impacting your wellbeing. In other words, you may not realize you have a problem, yet it’s a problem you need to solve in order to move toward health and wholeness.

Women are super adaptable beings who are biologically programmed to succeed, which means we can fool ourselves into thinking we’re okay, even when we know something’s amiss. This means we can go through life thinking we’re fine when instead we’re silently suffering and oblivious.

But our dreams don’t lie to us. They reveal the truth about our thoughts, feelings, fears, and gifts. Knowing how to read dreams can help you bring what’s not working into alignment in a way that feels joyful.

So what can you look for in a dream to help you find those best, next steps? Look for the “before” and “after.” Most dreams have two parts, the “before” that illuminates the problem, and the “after” that offers a solution.

Using our dream example from above, the “before” is as follows:

I’m walking down my hallway when I hear a baby (e.g. purpose) crying.

The “before” explains the waking life situation that is problematic. A young, vulnerable part of my life is trying to get my attention and it’s essential that I pay attention.

The dream then reveals the simple next steps:

I run into the room and realize I forgot I have a baby (e.g. purpose) and it’s starving, near death. I feel horrible, but am relieved the baby (e.g. purpose) didn’t die and I can now take care of it. It’s not too late.

The before is simply saying, “Hey, you have a purpose that’s being ignored. The more you ignore it the louder (more problematic) it’s going to get.

The after is saying, “Go back to your initial idea or the thing that’s in an infancy stage and feed it. Notice you feel horrible. This is a sign the baby (e.g. purpose) is important to you and that you don’t really want to neglect it. Be grateful the baby (e.g. purpose) is still alive and that you are now able to feed it and bring it to life.”

Taking it a step further, “feed it” might be “write in your book” or “tend to your relationship.”

It’s equally important that you transition out of “feeling horrible” into “grateful” so you don’t stay mired in disempowerment and regret, which is something many women do once they realize they’ve wasted a lot of time by putting the purpose, project or thing on hold.

The dream is saying, “It’s not too late” There is hope.

Create Your Own Dream Medicine Remedy

If you’re having dreams about forgetting to feed or care for a baby, it might be useful to take flower essences geared toward nurturing your creativity and purpose. Here’s what I recommend:

Pomegranate helps balance the creative female energies, both inner and outer.

Quince helps establish balance with the soul’s need to express both power and love; to integrate nurturing feelings within a role which also requires authority and responsibility.

I also recommend working with someone who can help you integrate your purpose, or whatever the baby represents, into your life.

Baby dreams encourage the dreamer to take action, to remember what you’re here for, and to trust the process.

That’s good advice to follow.

Sweet dreams,

Amy

Amy Brucker ~ Dream Your Desires Into Being