What’s Blocking Your Connection To Source?

By Amy Brucker

A client of mine made a strong confession during our first session together:

My purpose is calling, I can feel it. I just can’t get to it.

Not for lack of trying, I’m definitely trying, but something isn’t working.

She wanted to make money by engaging her purpose. She wanted to have fun integrating her spiritual gifts into her work.

Yet at the core of her desires, what she really wanted was to feel deeply connected to her Soul. She wanted life to flow through her instead of getting stuck at the logjam created by the belief she’d inherited from her grandfather: “Poverty is a Virtue.”

Instead of flow she felt anxious.

She wasn’t getting any sleep. She was exhausted. She was getting older.

And the possibility of one more birthday without the deep Soul connection she desired was more than she could bear.

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The Soul Medicine of Suicide and Death In Dreams

By Amy Brucker

Years ago, one of my clients was struggling with her life. She was unhappy because she couldn’t make friends or meet a loving partner to share her life with.

During one of our sessions she told me she dreamed she was going to commit suicide. In the dream, she was standing on the scaffolding of a building. She was visibly rattled, wondering what in the world it meant.

I could understand her concern, but my first response was to say,”Yay! Congratulations.”

Time for a Change

While there is always the possibility that death in dreams is a literal premonition, it’s usually about a transformation that is so complete the person going through it will be radically altered. The old self is dying, or will die, or needs to die, so the new self can be reborn.

Similarly, suicide–in waking life AND in dream life–is a call to transform, to consciously kill off the part of your life that is no longer needed so you can create your new self.

I’m not talking about killing the physical part of you. This is NOT about literal death of the physical body.

It’s about eliminating a habit or trait that is no longer needed so you can create new habits or traits that are better suited to your health and wellness.

A Sign You’re Ready (or Not) to Transform

If your soul is ready to shift it might send you a dream of death. The death of someone or something, or even yourself.

But the feelings you’re experiencing in the dream are the key to everything.

Does your dream self feel anxious about the death? Then it’s likely you’re feeling anxious about the transformation process.

Do you feel nervous? Fear? Joy? Indifferent? Blindsided? Any feeling in the dream is likely a reflection of your waking life feeling, a feeling you may or may not be aware exists. The dream is there to help you process your emotions.

So what do you do if you, a loved one, or a client is dreaming of death?

Reflect on the accompanying emotion and explore ways to address these so you can create a more fluid and fulfilling transformation.

When I work with clients, I listen to their dream and help them explore the meaning. That’s where most dreamworkers stop, but I go much deeper. I craft original soul medicine through a combination of soul constellation, flower essence remedy, and energy shifting to help my clients embody their dream and transform whatever it is they are experiencing. It’s far more effective than simple dreamwork and it creates profound shifts.

The client of mine who dreamed she committed suicide decided to move to a smaller town and build a new home. She’s much happier now, living with the love of her life.

Dreams of death and suicide are invitations to release that which no longer works so you can make room for something more aligned with your soul’s wishes. What a wonderful gift to help us delve into the healing power of soul medicine.

sweet dreams,

Amy

Making It Through The Tough Times

By Amy Brucker

When things get tough, I tend to struggle a bit before I remember it doesn’t have to be so hard—I can surrender.

Surrendering is second nature to me now, but there was a time when the thought of surrendering was terrifying. I used to feel that I had to will my way through the tough times, or lie down in defeat and let depression settle in.

But those days are long gone, and with the Wisdom of Surrender comes a sort of soul relief, an exhalation. I can breathe so much better without the struggle.

Surrender your struggle to the Universe so it can release you from your burden.

Whenever you feel bound in place, or a strong push to move forward (that isn’t working), remind yourself to surrender.

Remember that the tough times are temporary.

You can call on the Divine to hold the burden for you so you can find clarity and renewed purpose. Then wait. Clarity will waft in like a feather on the wind. It might take a day or a week, but it will come. The trick is to have patience.

When I teach this practice to my clients and students, it confuses them at first.

Are you giving up? They ask, not out loud, but I can hear it in their silence.

No, I’m not giving up.

I surrender to the Universe. To what you might call God, Goddess, the Divine, Source, Spirit.

Surrender is like asking a trusted friend to hold your bag of groceries while you fumble for your keys. You know she’ll hold them for you until you’re able to hold them again. Or maybe she’ll just carry them into the house for you, set them down, and put them away. This is the beauty of surrender. Sometimes you get your baggage back, sometimes it disappears completely, but however the saga unfolds, your needs are met.

In order to surrender, to truly surrender, it helps to trust that on some level, all is well no matter what.

That doesn’t mean things will always go your way. Or that people won’t get sick and die.

In fact, things on the earthly plane may look beyond repair.

But on some level, on the way to your purest Essence or God or Goddess or the Universe, all is well. When you connect to this place, it’s easier to let go of struggle and surrender so ultimately you can move forward.

When you surrender, you become a channel for Spirit to move through you. It’s from this centered place that you can create soulutions to challenging problems.

Surrendering is a simple and subtle, yet freeing sensation.

You know that feeling of total relaxation? Like when you get into bed after a good day, sink into the mattress and feel like you’re floating on a cloud as your conscious mind slowly slips into oblivion?

That’s what it feels like to surrender.

There is a knowing that all will be well if you can trust your true Essence.

This is a place of non-duality. There is no good or bad, but something else entirely. It’s a sort of Divine Neutrality, except it has a hint of inspiration and a dash of acceptance.

It’s a peaceful place.

Will you join me there?

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

The Joy Of Living From Essence

Written By Amy Brucker

What do you see?

At first glance you might see beautiful, colorful flowers. But upon closer inspection you see little imperfections.

The petals are rough around the edges, browning. The tomato is unripened, having fallen from the vine too soon. The geranium leaves are turning white, a sign of disease.

This is my basket of misfits, the discarded blooms that withered due to hardship or age.

Still, they’re beautiful.

Seeing with New Eyes

At first glance, the lives around you may seem beautiful, colorful. Perhaps you’ve felt envious of the visible success, the ease with which the women in your life grow their ideas and bloom into something magnificent. Things may look lovely, as though they haven’t a care in the world.

But upon closer inspection, you might notice something unexpected. The “soul-mate” coach is on the verge of divorce. The wealthy “business coach” is teetering on the edge of bankruptcy. The happy mother is becoming an alcoholic because the stress is overwhelming.

People’s lives aren’t always as they seem. When you look more closely, you see how the beautiful dimensions of life are woven with adversity–like the warp and weft of a basket, you can’t have one without the other.

It would be easy to judge, once the deeper truth is revealed, but what if we saw it a different way?

A Person’s True Personality

I’ve heard it said that, “A person’s true nature is revealed in tough times”, as though someone’s stress induced rage is who they really are, underneath all of the day-to-day joy, but I disagree.

We are multi-faceted beings with good days and challenging days. We are a mixture of shadow and light. We snarl and sneer, laugh and dance. We are not one of these things, but all of them, and none of them.

You can’t summarize a flower’s essence based solely on what happens during a drought, when the color fades from the petals and the vine begins to wither.

The flower’s true essence can only be expressed by witnessing its entire existence: its potential, its day-to-day experience, its rooting and its blooming, its dying and its re-seeding.

The Joy of Living from Essence

When you live from your Essence you weave together the shadow and the light, creating a strong container to hold your purpose, your offering to the world.

Denying any aspect of your Essence creates a weak vessel, one that cannot hold the full power of your being.

To live from Essence, you must clear any ancestral wounds that limit your self perception, or tether you in place. Inherited beliefs, behaviors, and habits that do not serve you need to go.

When you break free from the binds that hold you back, you untether yourself and it sets you free.

You make room for the rich humus of your shadow and the brilliance of your light.

You become a stronger container that can hold the full power of your purpose.

You become a colorful bouquet of flowers that looks beautiful despite any roughness around the edges. Without apology, but wild grace.

May it be so.

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

First Ever Women’s Dream Temple Retreat ~ You’re invited

By Amy Brucker

I’m excited to announce the first Dream Temple Retreat—for Women:

Dreaming the Sacred into Life

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During this inspiring weekend, we’ll slip into the dreamtime with soulful women who are devoted to living from their Essence.

We’ll sit in sisterhood and

…create sacred space with altars and art.

…embody our dreams with dream sharing, dream journeying, dream theater, dream art, soul (energy) tracking, ancestral healing, plant medicine—whatever Spirit calls us to do and be.

… dance in the moonlight.

… drum by the fire.

… tell stories.

… share insights.

… give offerings.

And through it all, we’ll have fun!

This work is magical. This work is deep. This work is powerful.

Will you join me? I hope so!

Click here to learn more

sweet dreaming,

Amy

P.S. Early bird registration is due this Friday. I did this so I could get a sense of how many people are interested. If you are, let me know! I would love to meet you in person. Here’s the link again.

Aliens are just “Soul-Less” Ancient Human Beings

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By Phoenix of Elder Mountain – Aliens are just “Soul-Less” ancient Human Beings with only a Mental (astral) Body left. This has given them extremely powerful Telepathy (mind control) and live on the dream planes of Earth right near us every single day. Combine this with the Military agenda of the Demon Humans (dark humans living with demonic souls), and you have the real Matrix 

The movie “Children of the Corn” came out in 1984, my son was born in ’83 and my daughter in ’85, and by the time my daughter was two years old (the year of the Harmonic Convergence, the first of four (until 2026); she told me there were aliens in our basement, I had never spoken those words to my kids when they were little. I said ok, let’s go see if we can find them and I carried her down the stairs with…

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~ Releasing Resistance ~

By Amy Brucker

The other night, at 2:00 am (wide awake due to a late night coffee Popsicle — duh — and the full moon), I suddenly realized why my soul felt tethered in place.

It was the kind of epiphany that deserves an audible “ping” and the face-palm exclamation of, “Whoa! Why didn’t I know this before?!”

You see, my inner voice kept saying, “free me.”

And I wanted to feel free. Truly, unequivocally free.

I wanted to hop in the car and drive away without an agenda.

I wanted to wake up to the wild and untamed wilderness. To the sound of sunflowers dancing in the breeze..

Yet I felt tethered in place. I couldn’t move.

Dealing with a Tethered Soul

Have you ever felt this way? Tethered down despite feeling completely aligned with your purpose? As though you could not move forward no matter how hard you tried?

Well, this tethered feeling came with a heavy, thick-as-concrete sensation, which was not altogether unfamiliar. You might call it a block, but it was so much more than that.

I felt it in my energy body, in my physical body, and I didn’t like it. Nor could I shake it. Every time I tried to “let it go” I’d feel good for five seconds then the weight would return. With the weight came a feeling of heaviness, depression almost, and an unexpected sense of loss.

Then out of no where, I had the epiphany. *ping*

I realized the tethered sensation was the simple result of resistance. I was resisting many things.

I was mired down in “shoulds.” I “should” make a lot more money. I “should” do this marketing plan. I “should” have gotten that person to understand me. I “should not” have to explain myself. Other people “should” accept me for who I am.

Once I realized I was in resistance, that the better choice was to drop the “shoulds” and slip into trust, I was able to let go. Something released in me. I felt an expulsion, as though I’d exhaled a long held breath. My body became lighter and the sensation of freedom filled the vacancy in my being.

Resistance is a Tricky Beast

Until I had this experience, I thought resistance always looked a certain way, sort of cowardly, like a person lacking the ability to jump when the next step is uncertain, but this experience made me realize resistance is a shapeshifter. It can look like fear, anger, depression, or a big fat should.

Resistance shows up in many ways. It’s sneaky and powerful and it can wreak havoc on your life when it gains control and you don’t realize it’s really just resistance.

The key to freeing your soul is to understand how the many faces of resistance show up in your life, and then to release whatever it is you are resisting.

Home Grown Soul Medicine to Release Resistance

Flower essences are perfect for supporting you if you’re working through resistance. As energy medicine, they work on the emotional and energy bodies to help you process difficult emotions.

The other day I made a Zinnia flower essence and it’s especially good for helping people lighten up, which is a needed quality for people in resistance. Here’s the blend I made:

Remedy to Release Resistance

Zinnia to enhance lightness and childlike enthusiasm.

Willow to activate forgiveness, acceptance, and be in the flow of life.

Poison Oak to help you feel safe while being emotionally open and vulnerable.

Trusting the Divine

It’s much easier to release resistance when you trust in a higher power. Whether that’s your higher self, Source, or a support system, releasing resistance is about surrendering to the present moment and making a clear decision about how to move forward in a way that feeds your soul. Even if the clarity is just to release resistance.

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

~ When Freedom Comes With A Price ~

By Amy Brucker

I just got back from a two week adventure in Colorado during which 135 of my closest relatives gathered from every corner of the continent to attend a family reunion.

After our Friday night dinner, I gave a presentation about our genealogy and how ourancestors were instrumental in the shaping of American Independence, and how that freedom came with a price.

Filled with hope and a vision, my ancestors came to the New World looking for freedom, but what they found was a hard road paved with loss and devastation. As Independence Day approaches, their stories are a relevant reminder of the cost of freedom.

The Cost of Freedom

During my presentation, I shared that our ancestors came over on the Mayflower in 1620, and how Susana White, our many-times-great-grandmother, was one of only four women who lived through the first winter, thanks to the Wampanoag who helped them survive.

I talked about how our ancestors were the subject of the Eames Family Massacre in Framingham, MA in 1676 during the King Philip’s War. How my many-times-great-grandmother, Mary Padelford Eames, and five of her children were massacred by Nipmuc Indians, and how we are the direct descendants of the only child who survived and had children.

I shared how our many-times-great-grandfather, Jacob Barney, lived next to the physician who examined the accused during the witch trials of 1692, and how the Barney family donated two acres of land to the Village of Salem to be used as a school, and then mysteriously moved far away, just as as the trials were beginning in April.

I then shared how our ancestors fought in the Revolutionary War, the War of 1812, and the Civil War, and how my great-great-grandfather was part of the Eighth Cavalry who was instrumental in capturing and slaying Sitting Bull, a Holy Man whose greatest desire was to ensure the health and wellbeing of his clan.

My family was instrumental in shaping the “Independence of America”, but it’s a freedom that comes with a price.

There are many sides to every story and the shaping of America is no different.

Wampanoag and Nipmuc Indians wanted to live in harmony with the land, keep their traditions alive, and honor their agreements with the colonists.

Pilgrims wanted a safe place to practice their religion, raise families in accordance with their beliefs, and cultivate a place of belonging that was independent of political influence.

When these two worlds collided it resulted in tenuous friendships followed by bloody battles and devastating losses on both sides.

As Americans everywhere celebrate Independence Day this Fourth of July, remember that our freedom comes with a price. Every story has many sides, and the opposition isn’t really the enemy, but a person or people who are trying to assure their safety, belonging, and worth as a human, and sometimes their quest night seem at odds with your own.

Knowing Where You Come From Shapes Your Perception

We can’t change our past, but we can change how we perceive people whose values and outlook on life are different than ours. We all want safety, belonging, and to feel worthy. These are basic human needs.

True freedom comes from understanding that the power of our purpose, the reasons why we are here, do not have to impede on the freedom of others, and that there is always a way for all people to thrive.

The challenge is that the answer may not be obvious. We may have to examine our past in order to understand why we see the world the way we do, and then remember that there is always more than one perspective, each of which can be true.

As we move forward with our independence, with freedoms others may seek to deny, we need to look for soulutions we haven’t seen before. What answers are standing right before us? What haven’t we seen?

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

The Sphinx Moth, Butterfly and Moth Totems

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Elder Mountain Dreaming

blue butterflyBy Phoenix of Elder Mountain –  A Great Ash Sphinx Moth visited Elder Mountain two years ago, and then I had a dream about a year ago in much detail, of the Brotherhood of the Sphinx (which doesn’t exist in the occult, magic or esoteric, nor middle ages documents when most writing was collected and done). I received some information about this ancient cult from the dreaming, so I decided to write about the symbolism (totem) of the Sphinx Moth, Butterfly and Moth today.

We have two symbols here to work with, the Sphinx and the Moth. Like its butterfly cousin, the moth shows the symbolism of transformation at various levels. How this equates to our life, is we are in a “longer” cycle of change (not a short one, month or year, but several years). I work with cycles and symbolism together and found over the decades that we…

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Crystal of the Week: Blue Kyanite – Holistic Experiment

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Blue Kyanite is the most well-known color of Kyanite and it’s often used for its ability to align and open all of the chakras. It’s an excellent choice for healers because it places a shield around the healer, conducts healing energy and grounds it.

It’s a high vibration stone with strong crystal energy that will open the throat chakra and promote better communication and self-expression as well as assist the user to speak their personal truth.

Since this stone is so powerful that it does not need to be cleansed. Someone with a lower vibration may feel horrible side-effects from Kyanite because of its ability to raise the vibrations of the wearer to reach a higher state of consciousness.

Physical, Emotional and Spiritual Purposes

On a physical level, Blue Kyanite can be used for people who suffer from speech impediments as well as issues with their bone marrow. It promotes mobility in the body and helps with any sort of tissue healing.

This stone can also be used for people who have suffered from strokes, issues with the nervous system, the brain, the thyroid, and any issue that has to do with the throat. It’s also a natural pain reliever and lowers blood pressure and aids in back problems.

Blue Kyanite is great for patients who have had accidents or surgery on any part of the body. It’s also great for people who are low in energy and can assist trauma and replenish one’s energy.

On an emotional level, this stone can be used to promote a healthy communication so it’s great for people who are afraid of public speaking. It also aids tension and promotes tranquility as well as clears and calms the user in preparation for meditation.

The best way to use this stone is during meditation because it allows one to make contact with spiritual beings and can help develop one’s intuition. Blue Kyanite also facilitates meditation and help release fear from both oneself and those the user works with.

On a spiritual level, Blue Kyanite helps clear the meridians and pathways and will restore the flow of energy to the chakras. It also helps with astral traveling, out-of-body experiences, promotes one’s psychic abilities, and makes visualizations stronger.

You can also put Blue Kyanite under the pillow to promote lucid dreams.

Disclaimer: Crystal of the Week are a spiritual support to healing and are not prescription or healthcare information.