By Amy Brucker
I was standing at the crossroads of darkness and light.
One of my favorite clients, a woman I’d worked with for nearly two years, needed a different kind of support than I could give her. She was reluctant to end our sessions, but life was taking her in a different direction. It was time for her to move on.
Even though I’d reached the same conclusion, letting go was not easy. I wasn’t only saying good-bye to a client I loved, I was losing a significant portion of my income.
In that moment I had a choice.
I could succumb to sadness and fear at the loss of a client and income.
Or I could focus on the glimmer of light that was shining through the veil of my mood.
I latched on to the light and immediately began to feel something new emerge. I didn’t know how long it would take to come to fruition, or what would happen. But I let it guide me.
Imbolc and the Light of Hope
Imbolc (February 1) is a holiday my ancestors celebrated to acknowledge the return of Light as winter transitioned slowly into spring. This time of year is a good reminder that no matter how dark it gets, light always follows.
Sometimes when you come to a crossroads, though, there’s a path of darkness and a path of light. Although you get to choose which you follow, your choice colors your experience.
The path of darkness can be comforting. Sometimes it’s a warm cave we curl into while we regenerate after a long journey. Darkness offers shelter, provides protection, gives us the space we need to find our center again.
But it isn’t always necessary to go down the path of darkness. Sometimes that route leads to denial of new life that’s trying to emerge. Life that is ready to burst forth if we only let it in.
With my client gone, I knew I had a choice to follow the dark or the light, the sadness or the joy. I could feel the distinct energies running through me. I knew neither was right or wrong, but I also remembered the times in my life when I needlessly chose the sadness and succumbed to the suffering. I didn’t want to do that. I chose to feel the light. To revel in it. To trust the void and embrace the unknowing.
Turning to the lightness brought me to where I needed to be. The next day I signed on a new client whose needs are beautifully aligned with everything I want to be doing in my work.
The light pulled me through. I was safely on the other side.
Celebrating New Life
There is nothing wrong with the darkness. It carries the seeds of new life.
But you don’t always have to linger in the dark in order to process your pain before you can authentically move forward. You can simply acknowledge the pain, feel its existence, say hello with gratitude, let it go, and move on.
Where in your life is there a glimmer of hope shining through the darkness?
What might happen if you acknowledge the dark, but focus on the light and let everything else go?
Who might you be if you surrender to trust and have faith in Spirit, letting the light guide you toward new life?
That’s something worth contemplating.