What’s Blocking Your Connection To Source?

By Amy Brucker

A client of mine made a strong confession during our first session together:

My purpose is calling, I can feel it. I just can’t get to it.

Not for lack of trying, I’m definitely trying, but something isn’t working.

She wanted to make money by engaging her purpose. She wanted to have fun integrating her spiritual gifts into her work.

Yet at the core of her desires, what she really wanted was to feel deeply connected to her Soul. She wanted life to flow through her instead of getting stuck at the logjam created by the belief she’d inherited from her grandfather: “Poverty is a Virtue.”

Instead of flow she felt anxious.

She wasn’t getting any sleep. She was exhausted. She was getting older.

And the possibility of one more birthday without the deep Soul connection she desired was more than she could bear.

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What If Everything You Need Is A Mile Away?

By Amy Brucker

Louise and I lived in the same neighborhood for ten years. I walked by her house on a regular basis. We never met.

One day, Louise was walking with her dog Bodhi when an inner Voice told her to take a right turn instead of her usual left. She did, and because of this, we met on the sidewalk. Something clicked between us. We exchanged numbers. We’ve been inseparable ever since.

For as long as I’ve lived here, I haven’t met anyone in this town who’s become a friend, and it’s not for lack of trying. I’ve done all sorts of things to meet people, but alas, it wasn’t in the cards.

Then one day, I met Louise. Instant BFF.

Sometimes life is like that. There’s struggle for ten years and than bam! You shift something simple, take a different turn, and open yourself up to receiving exactly what you’ve been wanting. It was there the entire time, you just didn’t see it.

Everything You Need is a (Metaphoric) Mile Away

The things you need are close to you already. If there’s anything you’re pining for, that you’re truly needing, it’s right there, you just don’t see it yet.

It might be close in the physical sense, like Louise living a mile away.

But it might also be close in the energetic sense, like a lifestyle you desire.

And it’s right there, so close you could practically touch it.

The problem is, you might be looking in the wrong place, sticking to a routine that is just a touch off where you need to be. Or you’re looking with the wrong perspective.

The point is, everything you need is a mile away. All you have to do is tune in to the Voice that’s guiding you to get there.

It might take a day. It might take ten years, but when the Voice says, “turn right”, it’s important to turn right.

How Do You Know if it’s the Right Voice?

Learning how to distinguish the Voice of your Higher Self from the Voice of Fear is a process. They have a distinctly different quality, so it’s helpful to experiment on a daily basis so you can be ready when you really need to trust your inner guidance.

The Voice of Fear usually has a force to it. It’s harsher, abrupt, demanding, commanding, pushy, sneaky.

The Voice of the Higher Self is usually a gentle or firm suggestion that’s wrapped in a sense of indifference, or perhaps calmness.

It’s important to practice discerning the difference so you know which voice is speaking to you when you most need to know.

Listen

As you go about your day, no matter what you’re doing, pay attention internally for blips of images, thoughts, words, sensations. Each one might be guidance for your journey, helping you course correct so you end up going where you most need to be to fulfill one of your desires.

It might take a minute. It might take ten years. But if you listen, you’ll get there.

Think about an area in your life where you feel stagnant and frustrated. Then think about the inner guidance you’ve been ignoring. There is likely a direct correlation between the two.

Where is your inner guidance leading you? What direction has she given that you’ve dismissed?

Interesting to think about, isn’t it.

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

Is It A Really Good Idea To Make Friends With Death?

By Amy Brucker

Years ago, when I was studying shamanism, I did a shamanic journey to meet my inner healer. I didn’t have specific expectations of what I’d find. I thought it would be a wise old woman or a white bearded man. But that’s not what showed up. Instead, I met Death.

Death came to me, cloaked in a ubiquitous black robe, shadows where the face should have been. I looked at him and panicked.

Did this mean I was dying?

Did this mean I was sick?

What did this mean?!

When the journey was over, I met with my teacher and told her I failed the exercise. I saw Death, not my Inner Healer. She looked at me and said, “There are two aspects of the Inner Healer, Death is one of them.”

Huh?

Death as an Ally

If you don’t make friends with Death, you can’t heal. Instead, you end up carrying your disappointments and disruptions around like heavy baggage, and all it does is weigh you down.

The relationship you thought was going to be “the one” but turned out to be “the biggest betrayal of your life”…

The fast money you made that turned into dust just as quickly…

The diagnoses that hijacked your health and wellness…

Each one is an opportunity to face Death with purpose so you can lay your burdens to rest. It’s an opportunity to let go of that which isn’t working in your life so you can move forward and embrace something that is nurturing and more in alignment with your soul and purpose.

The problem is, Death is scary. It’s shadowed, dark, and fraught with mystery.

When you stand before death, you don’t know what to expect. All you see is a dark void. You don’t know what’s on the other side of death. You don’t know what the path forward looks like.

Because of this, it’s easy to say, “no thank you” to death, but when you do that, you end up carrying each disappointment and disruption around like weights balanced one on top of the other, creating a big, heavy burden.

Ultimately, they hold you back. You can’t experience your full potential, you can’t live life or move forward until you’ve transformed them.

Recognize Death in Your Life

If you’re pining for the “good ol’ days” chances are somewhere along the way, something happened and you never let go. Something in your life died–a relationship, your health, your finances–but when you saw Death, when you saw your opportunity to heal, you felt fear and turned your back on it. Now you’re just carrying around dead weight. The more you do that, the more difficult it becomes to let go. The more you don’t let go, the heavier you will feel.

It’s a vicious cycle.

The good news is that you can end it.

Release the Dead Stuff

Letting go can be as easy as a tree dropping leaves in autumn. All you have to do is let go. The hard part is holding on. But if you’ve been holding on tightly for decades, it can feel difficult to shrug it off.

If your hand has been gripping a hammer for an hour, unclenching the muscles feels awkward at first. There’s stiffness, maybe pain. It takes awhile to readjust to the feeling of having an open hand. Flexibility comes slowly, but the more you work the muscle, opening and closing your fingers, the easier it gets.

The same is true for soul healing. I once did a soul retrieval for a client who’d been carrying around dead weight from a work disaster. Her job had ended more than a decade ago, and she’d dealt with it to the best of her ability, but she was carrying around guilt and shame that had woven its way into her life, impacting every decision.

After the soul retrieval, her life seemed to fall apart. It felt like death after death after death. In reality, she was shedding the things she’d been holding on to that weren’t working. It was scary. Before the soul retrieval, she’d been feeling pretty good, but afterword, she felt awful.

I told her that sometimes healing is like that. It gets worse before it gets better. The best way through it is to be present with what’s happening and to know it’s temporary.

That’s the beauty of life. Nothing is permanent. Everything changes. Sometimes that’s disappointing, but other times impermanence can become a lifeline that lets you sink into your difficult experience and trust that it will get you to more inspiring times.

The more you allow that to happen, the faster the healing happens.

My client trusted my council enough to let herself surrender to her experience. She came out the other end, shining and bright, full of renewed hope and new ideas, ready to catapult herself forward into her purpose.

Holding on to the past keeps you stuck there. Trust yourself. You know how to move forward, and painful as it may be, it’s worth the letting go.

Where is Death lingering in your life, ready to help you release that which you no longer need?

That is an important question to answer.

sweet dreaming,

Amy

Healers & Empaths: How to Protect Yourself In Your Sleep

Healers & Empaths: How To Protect Yourself In Your Sleep / krista-mitchell.com

We are in what is referred to as the dark time of the year, when the sunlight has diminished, the nights are long and cold, and spirits roam more freely as the veils thin.

It’s been like this at this time of year, in this hemisphere, for hundreds of years.

For healers and empaths, it’s a time when spiritual self-care is of increased importance, as we’re more susceptible not just to the energy shifts and increased psychic phenomena, but also because we are more powerfully sensitive to the feelings & energy of the world around us.

Have you noticed that lately?

You may also have noticed that the collective unconscious rests very uneasy. There is so much fear, stress, strife, violence, uncertainty, and devastation happening in the world right now. And even if it’s not in your part of the world, or if you’re not hearing about it, the energy can still affect you. 

It may make you want to shut off, seal yourself away in your own little bubble, and try to tune it out, but if you’re an empath this is almost impossible, and if you’re a healer (or both), your soul is calling you to respond with love and light.

That’s why you’re here, and you’re needed. But in order to be of service and in order to be ok, you need to be able to take care of yourself first.

Energy shielding and clearing is a must, but it’s only part of the self-care you need. As humans we’re connected to each other, nature and animals in far more ways through our energy fields, especially at night when we’re sleeping.

As our consciousness drifts on the dream and astral plane, we can encounter, interact with, and be affected by energies and spirits far removed from our own on the physical plane.

This can result in:

  • restless and/or disturbed sleep and sleep patterns
  • dark dreams
  • the feeling of not being fully rested upon waking
  • feeling seized by panic, anxiety, or deep fear in the middle of the night
  • not being able to switch your mind off from your daily problems or the troubles of the world
  • emotionally or viscerally experiencing the collective fears and feelings of people and places not directly related to you
  • struggling with, feeling trapped or suffocated by dark spirits in your dream state which forces you to wake up

Can you relate to any of this? If so, I have some tips from my own experience that may help you:

  1. Clear the energy of your space on a regular basis. By clearing the energy in your space, you raise it’s frequency which can naturally repel lower and harmful vibes. You can learn how to do that here.
  2. Clear your own energy. If you have dark energy or psychic debris hanging around on or in your aura, that can plague you at night. Here’s an article I wrote on how to clear your aura.
  3. Wear a moonstone necklace when sleeping. Moonstone channels lunar goddess energy that helps to protect us at night and in the dream state. The moon represents light shining through the darkness, and creates an effective energy shield or protective ward for our spirit.
  4. Soul-centered meditation. Taking a few minutes before going to bed to meditate, and center your focus on your soul, helps anchor your mind in your own divinity which can keep your mental energy from wandering at night. I recorded a 2.5 minute meditation that teaches you how to do that, you can download it free here.
  5. Say a prayer or set an intention before sleeping. Perhaps you read a Psalm (I recommend #23 or #91), a prayer from your own faith or lineage, call in Divinity or protective angels, or affirm that you will rest peacefully, fully, and safely throughout the night. When we speak with authority energy moves, and we always have authority over our own spiritual dominion (meaning ourselves and our own energy).
  6. Diffuse calming & protective essential oils at night. Lavender, geranium, rose, citrus + cinnamon + clove, palo santo, or cedar are all good choices.
  7. Use grounding + protective crystal placements. Put a piece of hematite (2-5″ in diameter) under the sheet at your feet to anchor your energy in the space, and place either selenite or celestite (2-5″, any formation) under the top of your pillow to create a high frequency vibration that will either repel or dissolve lower energies upon contact.

The Importance Of Remembering Where You Come From

By Amy Brucker

Has this ever happened to you:

As the weather turns cooler, my go-go-go has gone-gone-gone, and I want to retreat into the coziness of woolen socks and spiced tea.

But my desire goes beyond wanting to feel snug. There’s a distinct feeling that permeates these moments, a sensation that cannot be put into words.

It’s the mesmerizing movement of dipping a tea bag.

The soft glow of candle light casting shadows in the corners.

The feeling of warm with a blanket by the fire-lit hearth.

They all create this inner experience that is beyond cozy.

It’s Koselig (ku’-se-lee’).

Connecting with Your Ancestors (without Knowing It)

Without realizing it, I’ve been experiencing koselig my entire life. It’s a Norwegian word that loosely translates to “cozy.” But unlike the English word “cozy”, koselig is richer, deeper, going beyond woolen socks and cable knit sweaters. It’s a feeling. An inner glow.

My Norwegian kinfolk cultivate koselig all year round, not only when the snow falls. You can feel it in the festivities of Syttende Mai (their version of Fourth of July), or the pizza place in the middle of town. It’s a state of mind and sensation independent of weather, place, or time.

My experience of koselig is a gentle reminder of my roots, of where I come from. Genetics hold so much more than the code for eye color. These cellular memories are directions for living. Sometimes they nurture us, bringing a sense of wholeness that we need, not just to survive, but to thrive.

Remembering Where You Come From

What might you be experiencing that is a remnant of your ancestral past?

If your ancestors emigrated several generations ago to your current continent, if you were adopted, or if your family doesn’t talk about the past, that might be a difficult question to answer, but see if you can. The more connected you feel to your ancestors, the more meaning your life will hold.

Knowing where you come from helps you grows strong roots, roots that hold you steady when you’re feeling unstable. These roots tap into your family tree so they can share their secrets with you:

You come from a long lineage of people who overcame life threatening hardships to ultimately deliver you into the world. You are a gift from those who walked before you. Take comfort in the knowing that you are never alone. Your ancestors are with you, dreaming you into being, just as you have dreamed their lives into memories and stories that bring laughter and tears.

So where did you come from? What are you doing that is reminiscent of the past?

How are you connecting to your ancestors without knowing it? Food for thought.

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

The Soul Medicine of Suicide and Death In Dreams

By Amy Brucker

Years ago, one of my clients was struggling with her life. She was unhappy because she couldn’t make friends or meet a loving partner to share her life with.

During one of our sessions she told me she dreamed she was going to commit suicide. In the dream, she was standing on the scaffolding of a building. She was visibly rattled, wondering what in the world it meant.

I could understand her concern, but my first response was to say,”Yay! Congratulations.”

Time for a Change

While there is always the possibility that death in dreams is a literal premonition, it’s usually about a transformation that is so complete the person going through it will be radically altered. The old self is dying, or will die, or needs to die, so the new self can be reborn.

Similarly, suicide–in waking life AND in dream life–is a call to transform, to consciously kill off the part of your life that is no longer needed so you can create your new self.

I’m not talking about killing the physical part of you. This is NOT about literal death of the physical body.

It’s about eliminating a habit or trait that is no longer needed so you can create new habits or traits that are better suited to your health and wellness.

A Sign You’re Ready (or Not) to Transform

If your soul is ready to shift it might send you a dream of death. The death of someone or something, or even yourself.

But the feelings you’re experiencing in the dream are the key to everything.

Does your dream self feel anxious about the death? Then it’s likely you’re feeling anxious about the transformation process.

Do you feel nervous? Fear? Joy? Indifferent? Blindsided? Any feeling in the dream is likely a reflection of your waking life feeling, a feeling you may or may not be aware exists. The dream is there to help you process your emotions.

So what do you do if you, a loved one, or a client is dreaming of death?

Reflect on the accompanying emotion and explore ways to address these so you can create a more fluid and fulfilling transformation.

When I work with clients, I listen to their dream and help them explore the meaning. That’s where most dreamworkers stop, but I go much deeper. I craft original soul medicine through a combination of soul constellation, flower essence remedy, and energy shifting to help my clients embody their dream and transform whatever it is they are experiencing. It’s far more effective than simple dreamwork and it creates profound shifts.

The client of mine who dreamed she committed suicide decided to move to a smaller town and build a new home. She’s much happier now, living with the love of her life.

Dreams of death and suicide are invitations to release that which no longer works so you can make room for something more aligned with your soul’s wishes. What a wonderful gift to help us delve into the healing power of soul medicine.

sweet dreams,

Amy

The Holy Power of Tiger Dreams

By Amy Brucker

Tiger-Leap-In-The-Water-Wallpaper

I was standing by a tree when flames erupted from the branches. I ran to save myself, but a tiger leapt out and chased me.

The ground held no refuge, so I did the only thing I could think of: I left my body and floated away.

The Holy Power of Tiger Dreams

Whenever I dream of Tiger, I wake up feeling blessed, even if the dream was scary. There’s something about her power, her regalness, that makes me feel like I was visited by something Holy.

In many cultures, west on the Medicine Wheel is about autumn, water, and letting go. The corresponding animal? Big Cats.

Big cats, like Tiger, are ferocious in nature. They sit in utter stillness, with patience and keen observation, before pouncing on their prey. When they do, their bloody maw snarls a victory cry. Or perhaps it’s the cry of pleasure.

Unapologetically powerful, Tiger is at once fierce and gracefully feline.

Tigers remind us of the power of radical transformation. The Death of Death. The point of no return.

When Tiger comes calling, you have an opportunity to watch and learn. She’s inviting you to patiently get ready to pounce. She blesses you with courage and perseverance. But you have to be willing to trust her presence in your life. If you don’t, you’ll get burned.

Dreaming of Tiger: A Struggle with Power

When I had this dream, it was the mid-nineties, a time when I was beginning to feel the stirrings of my connection to Spirit as well as my call to shamanism. With these callings came a sense of aloneness and lostness.

On one level, my dream indicated I was having a difficult time dealing with my personal power–my purpose, my passion, my anger–and that my tendency was to run from it and ultimately go out of body as a form of escape. My dream invited me to meet with tiger face to face and learn from her. It took me years to find the courage to make that happen.

Long before I had my dream, William Blake connected Tiger to Fire. He wrote:

Tyger Tyger, burning bright,
In the forests of the night;
What immortal hand or eye,
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?

Blake goes on to ask, “Did he who made the Lamb make thee?” Meaning, did the same hand create the gentle, timid lamb that created the fierce, powerful tiger?

This comparison reminds me of the times in my life when I’ve wondered about the merging of my own gentle and timid nature with my fierce power. Can both be “right”? Can both be a part of the Divine?

When Tiger appears in our dreams, she may be inviting us to notice how well we’ve integrated our power into our lives. Do we run from it? Does it make us go out of body in an attempt to deny it? Do we cuddle up with it and enjoy the warmth?

Next time you have a tiger dream, pay attention to how she shows up and notice if there is a correlation with how you are showing up with your power.

Do a waking journey with her in the imaginal realm and let her guide you deeper into union with your inner tiger.

Then see what happens.

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

How To Survive When The Flames of Hell Are Burning Down Your Door

By Amy Brucker

Sometimes life feels like a hellish fire burning down the only door leading in and out of the house.

In other words, miserably trapped in a bad situation.

And in these moments, it can feel impossible to find enough water to douse the flames.

Affirmations, essential oils, positive thinking just seem to melt away, leaving you feeling vulnerable and alone.

So how do you survive when hell has unleashed her fury?

I wrote about the importance of surrender, a simple concept that people have a difficult time fully grasping because when they think of situations like a house burning down, surrendering is the last thing that makes sense.

They equate surrendering with giving up. Or of settling for less than they desire. And these two beliefs couldn’t be further from the truth of what it means to surrender.

In the Dream Priestess Medicine Wheel, August ushers in autumn, and with it comes the beginning of a period of release.

It’s a period of shedding that which we no longer need, of laying down our burdens and trusting in our Essential Self and Source for guidance.

But how does this help you when the house is burning down? Won’t you die?

This metaphoric house-fire could be any number of things:

Too much paperwork.

Too many clients.

Not enough money.

Lack of direction.

Being physically or emotionally attacked.

Or even a literal fire.

It could be anything that feels life threatening or impossible to deal with.

And when you’re in that place, surrender seems like a ridiculous concept because it feels like giving up, and giving up would ultimately lead to your demise. Since you’re biologically programmed to survive at all costs, surrendering doesn’t feel right, so you try to do everything but surrender.

But think of this: if you were a kid in a house on fire, how would you want your mom or dad to show up for you?

Would you want them to freak out, run around shouting, “We’re going to die! We’re going to die!!!” Arms flailing and eyes bugged out?

No way. That would make the situation worse.

You’d want them to calmly and quickly deal with the situation, and find a way out for you.

And that’s why mastering the art of surrendering can save lives.

When you know how to surrender, you discover that it’s possible to drop enough fear so you can access your Essential Self, God, the Divine, whatever you want to call it. That’s when the magic happens because you can tune in for guidance on what to do next. Sometimes the very act of surrendering causes clarity and next steps to make themselves readily apparent.

For someone practiced at this, it takes about 1 second, which is why it’s good to practice before the fire erupts. You want the process to become second nature before disaster strikes.

Surrender is not about giving up. It’s not about allowing bad things to happen to you.

It’s about trusting there is a way out or through or beyond whatever is happening, and that your Essential Self knows how to help you navigate it.

sweet dreaming,

Amy

Making It Through The Tough Times

By Amy Brucker

When things get tough, I tend to struggle a bit before I remember it doesn’t have to be so hard—I can surrender.

Surrendering is second nature to me now, but there was a time when the thought of surrendering was terrifying. I used to feel that I had to will my way through the tough times, or lie down in defeat and let depression settle in.

But those days are long gone, and with the Wisdom of Surrender comes a sort of soul relief, an exhalation. I can breathe so much better without the struggle.

Surrender your struggle to the Universe so it can release you from your burden.

Whenever you feel bound in place, or a strong push to move forward (that isn’t working), remind yourself to surrender.

Remember that the tough times are temporary.

You can call on the Divine to hold the burden for you so you can find clarity and renewed purpose. Then wait. Clarity will waft in like a feather on the wind. It might take a day or a week, but it will come. The trick is to have patience.

When I teach this practice to my clients and students, it confuses them at first.

Are you giving up? They ask, not out loud, but I can hear it in their silence.

No, I’m not giving up.

I surrender to the Universe. To what you might call God, Goddess, the Divine, Source, Spirit.

Surrender is like asking a trusted friend to hold your bag of groceries while you fumble for your keys. You know she’ll hold them for you until you’re able to hold them again. Or maybe she’ll just carry them into the house for you, set them down, and put them away. This is the beauty of surrender. Sometimes you get your baggage back, sometimes it disappears completely, but however the saga unfolds, your needs are met.

In order to surrender, to truly surrender, it helps to trust that on some level, all is well no matter what.

That doesn’t mean things will always go your way. Or that people won’t get sick and die.

In fact, things on the earthly plane may look beyond repair.

But on some level, on the way to your purest Essence or God or Goddess or the Universe, all is well. When you connect to this place, it’s easier to let go of struggle and surrender so ultimately you can move forward.

When you surrender, you become a channel for Spirit to move through you. It’s from this centered place that you can create soulutions to challenging problems.

Surrendering is a simple and subtle, yet freeing sensation.

You know that feeling of total relaxation? Like when you get into bed after a good day, sink into the mattress and feel like you’re floating on a cloud as your conscious mind slowly slips into oblivion?

That’s what it feels like to surrender.

There is a knowing that all will be well if you can trust your true Essence.

This is a place of non-duality. There is no good or bad, but something else entirely. It’s a sort of Divine Neutrality, except it has a hint of inspiration and a dash of acceptance.

It’s a peaceful place.

Will you join me there?

Sweet dreaming,

Amy

Stingray Totem

Elder Mountain Dreaming

Brandi and the Smalleye Stingray on the Northern California coast.

By Phoenix of Elder Mountain –  My half-student Brandi and I went on an adventure out to the ocean in Northern California for a few days and were given the greatest gift. It was the arrival and presence of a Smalleye Stingray. I also had an experience the day before at the beach at night that I will share as part of the wholeness of the story/teaching.

As a dreamer (shaman), I only teach about Totems that I have had long-term relationships with, being taught by them from an in-depth relationship of experiences. Then there are those totems who appear on my path when a “new cycle” begins, and stingray is one who has appeared for my new 13 year cycle.

Wiki says the smalleye stingray is a large species of stingray in the family Dasyatidae, measuring up to…

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